Hello, everybody!Long time no see (or should I say "long time no write" ).Anyway, since i have finished with my exams more than a month ago, I spent the rest of the summer in Bulgaria with my friends etc...But there is really something I can not hold in myself, so I decided to visit the good old blog and just want to pour my soul here hoping that some people won't judge me.
So, as I already said I was in Bulgaria, where the sun is shinning, the birds are singing, my mom makes me cakes and my dad wakes me up with coffee every morning and in the evening the party is always in the list.Yeah, I know, sounds too good to be truth, but when you are on a vacation everything seems to be perfect!And to be honest - it was!Infact I was happy and even though I've been rejected 1 month ago by the boy I think I'm in love with(*), I had a wonderful summer, I found a great guy(**) and I actually thought he might be the perfect one.And infact he was!He was everything I have ever wanted - smart and funny and sweet and I had a great time with him.The problem that probably didn't give me the possibility to fall in love with him, like him, was that even though I had everything I needed, I kept on thinking about the other guy and this really breaks my heart - first of all, because * was a complete asshole to me and practically he used me and left me fall in love with him without thinking about the consequences, and second of all because ** is a really good guy and I keep on thinking that perhaps I'm a big selfish bitch(not being able to answer to his feelings the way he would like me to).
The question I'm asking myself everyday is WHY THE HELL I am always searching for the one who plays "hard to get", who doesn't even deserve my love and at the same time I can't accept the one that is too available to me.Am i punishing the guys for being too available, or I just can't fall in love anymore with someone if there is “no game” .And the thing that scares me the most is that probably my choice of men is always the same – I reject those who are crazy about me, and I’m dying for a phone call from those who don’t give a sh** .To love or not to love – that is the question and it still needs to be answered also if I’m aware of the fact that keeping all this to myself is the thing that won’t let me be happy.
Note:actually I wrote this about 3 weeks ago, but I was plucking up courage, just because I didn't want to hurt anyone's feelings, which I am probably doing now as well.But I can't feel more miserable than I am actually now - so "enjoy" !
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Sunday, September 12, 2010
The truth is out there
Hello, everyone!Seems like I’m starting to write a letter here, and believe me it would be much more pleasant for me, but unfortunately I am not.So, today is the 12th of September 2010.And tomorrow I have exam of Macroeconomics – not that anybody cares, but I just wanted to feel like somebody is being supportive, and by somebody I mean the Blog.
So, I was reading an article about 9/11 today, although I would have probably red this yesterday.But while I was trying to concentrate on my studies, doing absolutely nothing about it, a serious thought came into my mind…well not so serious, considering the fact I have 3 textbooks to repass.Well, the thing that kinda bothered me is that somehow an “ancient” man actually predicted the whole tragedy about the planes and the towers and the “blab la bla”.I was asking myself, who is this Nostradamus and why the hell nobody payed attention on his prediction before.And right after the accident, everybody understood that there is a prediction about a “great thunder” for the “City of God”.I must say I am impressed, also because I’ve always thought those prediction things are really interesting, although I really don’t believe in them . However, enough about 9/11 , we can all agree that we’ve listened to these things for a very, very long time, and to be specific – 9 years.
The thing is that now that everybody knows about Nostradamus and his predictions and more importantly- about his existence in the dark 1500 year in France(for those who still don’t know nothing about him), I couldn’t help but write about the “NEW” predicition – such as the thing about the end of the world, which according to the ancient Mayan and apparently Nostradamus should be on the 21st of December 2012.Practicaly, I don’t really believe neither about the sun, which is scheduled to be in a “solar maximum” in that year, nor about the upcoming apocalypse just because there will be an alignment of sorts with the center of the galaxy, nor about the Mayan and their calendar that obviously ends in this date.
I just think we could all agree about this.Everything is made for a commercial, except 9/11 of course – it has been a terrible lack of any possible humanity, but even since I’ve seen the 9/11 by Michael Moore, I couldn’t help but wonder is this for real ? Or somebody is really trying to make some good money of the whole story.And another thing about the end of the world – what is wrong with you , people ? Don’t you know how to use your brain?!I’ve been told that the end of the world should have been on the 5th of May 2000, and to tell the truth – I’m more than alive!!
So, here comes my question and I should probably ask people to answer it - the blog is just the place I could share my thoughts, without being judged of how I feel, what I think and why.How come people are being so subordinate, that they are now disposed to believe everything they see, such as the “commercial” about “the end”, instead of thinking about the important things in the world, which will existe not even after 2012, but after 2112 and 2212, and so on?
Finally, I would like to say just one more thing – I’m so gonna be sorry if everything is true and the world actually will end, but probably till then – I won’t be alive.So, see you soon ( if the Mayan have predicted).
So, I was reading an article about 9/11 today, although I would have probably red this yesterday.But while I was trying to concentrate on my studies, doing absolutely nothing about it, a serious thought came into my mind…well not so serious, considering the fact I have 3 textbooks to repass.Well, the thing that kinda bothered me is that somehow an “ancient” man actually predicted the whole tragedy about the planes and the towers and the “blab la bla”.I was asking myself, who is this Nostradamus and why the hell nobody payed attention on his prediction before.And right after the accident, everybody understood that there is a prediction about a “great thunder” for the “City of God”.I must say I am impressed, also because I’ve always thought those prediction things are really interesting, although I really don’t believe in them . However, enough about 9/11 , we can all agree that we’ve listened to these things for a very, very long time, and to be specific – 9 years.
The thing is that now that everybody knows about Nostradamus and his predictions and more importantly- about his existence in the dark 1500 year in France(for those who still don’t know nothing about him), I couldn’t help but write about the “NEW” predicition – such as the thing about the end of the world, which according to the ancient Mayan and apparently Nostradamus should be on the 21st of December 2012.Practicaly, I don’t really believe neither about the sun, which is scheduled to be in a “solar maximum” in that year, nor about the upcoming apocalypse just because there will be an alignment of sorts with the center of the galaxy, nor about the Mayan and their calendar that obviously ends in this date.
I just think we could all agree about this.Everything is made for a commercial, except 9/11 of course – it has been a terrible lack of any possible humanity, but even since I’ve seen the 9/11 by Michael Moore, I couldn’t help but wonder is this for real ? Or somebody is really trying to make some good money of the whole story.And another thing about the end of the world – what is wrong with you , people ? Don’t you know how to use your brain?!I’ve been told that the end of the world should have been on the 5th of May 2000, and to tell the truth – I’m more than alive!!
So, here comes my question and I should probably ask people to answer it - the blog is just the place I could share my thoughts, without being judged of how I feel, what I think and why.How come people are being so subordinate, that they are now disposed to believe everything they see, such as the “commercial” about “the end”, instead of thinking about the important things in the world, which will existe not even after 2012, but after 2112 and 2212, and so on?
Finally, I would like to say just one more thing – I’m so gonna be sorry if everything is true and the world actually will end, but probably till then – I won’t be alive.So, see you soon ( if the Mayan have predicted).
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